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a happy bed.... is a happy bed.

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 06:54:01 GMT

So, strangely, I've found myself in a strange place. Happy. Sort of. I think. I'm enjoying my time here in San Diego(whale's vagina) and looking forward to what the future has to hold. I was recently bogged down by drama and more drama. Shocking, I know. But now, things have cleared up, the future doesn't suck so much anymore and I'm feeling itchy to do stuff.

I was just laying here, on my bed and thinking how comfortable this is. First off, to have a bed is something of a revelation. I wouldn't normally have one, but to make my room look like a room, I took the plunge. I have to say, it's nice to be able to come home and plop down and just spread out. It's nothing like the king size, but its just the right firmness and it just reminds me of good decisions. Plus the fact that I got the Ikea frame of craig'slist for a mere benjamin made me pleased as well. I'm just looking around at my room, and its still alittle college-type, but what can I expect for a car-full worth of stuff.

Its spring here, and the rainy days have ended, sadly, but the last two days have left me hating hot weather, but today we were treated to a 'normal' 75 degree day, and it was marvelous. I finished my taxes, spent five gooooood hours with friends playing games, and came home :) There was no drama and it was marvelous. I spent the last hour talking to Ally and it was very fulfilling. I haven't had any negative contact with Aly, now that things are off and I can get back to being me.

I have the day off tomorrow too, and I've been pretty lacking in accomplishing anything, but you know what? who the hell cares?I'm allowed a couple like that. My arms are sore from working out yesterday though..... I freakin love this bed. Off to it.

scenesters

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 18:23:55 GMT

Horrorpops show = awesome. Lots of scenester kids. I should take up swing again.

rar

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 10:39:11 GMT

There's been nothing of note to report.

Seriously

I'm watching the boondocks... Show fucking rocks. Loved reading the comic compendiums. My dumbass left it in Maryland when I left.

So, seriously. Nothing to report.

I made bad beef stro on Saturday. Well, it wasn't all that bad, but it didn't taste like I thought it should.

The advent of the Hockey Centre Ice directv package in my life has allowed me to watch unbelievable amounts of hockey. It's good livin.

I realized the other day, that I can't say, "I'm making a run for the border, anybody want some?" anymore. To me it means going to Taco Bell. To everyone else around here, it means I'm literally running down to Mexico on my lunch break.

I had an odd experience with some random woman last week. She described herself as a bu-jew. A jew who's converted to Buddhism. She explained to me the secret to getting and keeping women, or multiple women. And then described the need for having multiple suitors, and the benefits it can have in propagating a long long term (40+ years) marriage. At this point I was thinking, 'Okay pervy old woman'. She then explained the fact that her hormones have dried up and can't stand the advances of her pervy neighbor. She then explained that an Asian woman or a Philippino woman would be best for me. Okay, odd.

Jesus and there's the same 'Bradley' or Art Institute commercials here too.. Only it's for the Art Institute of San Diego. Exact same. Christ.

Seems like everyone is getting sick lately. Everyone is infecting everyone else with their flu-infested selves. I got the flu for a couple days. It was agitating that every day was like a really nice day in spring; all I wanted to do was crawl in bed and bury. I love this bed... But then I got over it and today I read a little out in the sun...

It all feels like Spring out.. Birds think it's Spring. The air has the smell of newness in it... like Spring. The day gets warm like it does in May, except it's the beginning of February. Strange.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Sat, 26 Jan 2008 21:41:26 GMT

Soooo..... Watching the best songs of the 90's on VH1... Christ I miss the 90's... I've got a bed now... With a frame and mattress, even. I've been really lame with updates... Unbelievably I've been trying to grow myself outside of my online presence. It's been a crutch the first couple months here in CA; of late however, I've been more desirous of outdoor activities. I can't sit on the computer so much; while it is nice to escape into, it cannot be a continuing trend.

More 90's SONGs!!!!!!!!!

New and improved. With Thunder!

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 04:37:59 GMT

I'm thinking of a couple nights ago: 94.9's Big Sonic Chill is on, with a guest DJ; no Midori tonight... Friday night I sat in my car watching the storm clouds swirl after I got off work @ 10pm. The music this DJ picked was good; it accentuated the night very well, whether he meant to or not. It was chilly and getting cooler and the wind was swirling and picking up. Very light rain was falling on my nose; almost tickling my nose. I couldv'e slept in my car all night with that music and misting rain.
The next night, last night; my car felt like driving. So we drove. We managed to drive around Oceanside twice before I actually came home. 94.9 has good guest Dj's again, but they weren't in Big Sonic Chill mode tonight, seemed like they were in early punk and modern alterna mood tonight. It's a wonder I didn't get a speeding ticket. I couldn't help it if my car wanted to haul ass last night. I don't question, I just obey.
Today, more bonding with family; I Am Legend and more rain. Finally, with this pacific system comes thunder with the rain. It was very refreshing. Then we all barbequed in the rain. And then to top it off, another frustrating phone conversation with me mum. Naturally. No watering wands broken here.

christmas stockings.

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 05:16:30 GMT
Yeah so, Christmas season is here. Bah. I'm so not in the mood for it. I don't know what it is. Maybe, maybe I have a couple ideas.
Work is starting to drag. I think the problem wasn't my old store, maybe it's Lowe's in general. The christmas tree thing sorts wore out any holiday spirit I might have had. My mom and brother are in town sharing the house. I hope I wasn't this annoying to share a house with... I probably was. And then add Lisa on top of that, I never know how annoying we might've been.
I bought a fancy-shmancy four hundred dollar mattress Wednesday night too. It's super new and super firm and super Ikea-ey. I slept on it for one night before having/volunteering to surrender my room and my mattress for me mum's sake. Now, it's back to the floor and no privacy for me. Maybe that's why I'm so blah.
Seriously though, I come home from work, after cleaning up another bloody mess @ work, and everyone's asleep and me mum attacks me as soon as I get in the door. I'm fine Mom, I can get my own dinner. No, I'm just really tired. I can see what you guys had for dinner; I see it in the fridge Mom. That's okay, I can get food if I'm hungry, really. Add in another ten questions about menial minutia, add I just want to slink away into nothingness.
My sister firmly believes that I needed to get away, far away from my mom. Jesus, I thought 3000 miles was enough. I worry though; I try not to treat her badly, or like a child. But damn, she makes it pretty tough sometimes. Of course I only 'mimic' what my brother and sister do; not like I mimic, but it's just developing like I am.
I'm such a bad son.
No-one is getting anything for Christmas on-time. Everyone will have to have packages mailed out, but the earliest I can do that is the 26th, because my funds are suspended until the 24th, and there's no point to sending anything out Christmas Eve.
I'm trying to keep my head up. It's tough. I feel like I"m walking with one leg. There are times when I fancy thr idea of having a child. The holidays would be so much fun for the spawn. I would be a horrible father; I would spoil them rotten. But, things should get better soon. It's getting 'cold' here at night. It's been 35-40. and I saw snow. I'm still jazzed about that.
I think I'll repost this other places too to let everyone know I"m not dead and they're getting stuff from me, eventually.
Apparently, of all things to leave behind; I left my flip-flops. Brilliant.

Blahz-A

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 18:27:32 GMT
...SO. Life has settled down here. Now, I live a most non-exciting life. Work is smoothing out. The arrival of christmas trees brings a little liveliness, but then comes the annoying people coming for their trees. Plus this store does things ass-backwards and I just want to shoot myself sometimes.
I cut my hair and that was probably the most exciting thing to happen. I must've cut about 3-5 inches off. I'm not sure... I just know it was getting long.. I think I butchered a part in the back but whatever.
My room is coming together as I've settled in there... I think now it's time to focus on the outside... Seems like my first priority was to establish myself at home and then focus on the outside world.
It's coming around to Christmas and I have nothing for noone and no idea for noone... Ack Goodie, goodie christmas time!!!
I promise a better post next time, this one sucked ass.

continuance.

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 09:35:17 GMT
And the earth rotates, and the sun comes up,
No one doubts these inevitable subtleties;
The tides rise and fall with grace and grandeur,
we wake up for another day in the life.

Well the first week down in the state of CA. I still feel like I'm on vacation. One normally doesn't go to work when they're on vacation though. I bought some groceries today, and I set up some stuff yesterday. Hopefully that does the trick of helping me settle in. My sister has to remind herself that I'm not just visiting either.

new.

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 05:46:43 GMT
Here in San Diego (Oceanside). I made it in four days. I made it with a little bit of a car scare; it decided to keep stalling out whenever I would come to a stop. It did this in Oklahoma and again at a truck stop in the middle of Texas. Nerve-racking. But when I checked the oil later in Gallup, New Mexico, I discovered a very low oil level. Me thinks that be the problem.
Apparently I took 519 pictures along the way. I can send a photo journal to yous if yous wishes. Lemme know.
I think the best part of the trip was in Oklahoma City, El Reno exactly, when I was tired from two days of driving; I got a hotel room. I then went to local favourite Braum's, where the burgers will give you a heartattack. It was gross, the fries were nasty and it was all sooooo good. Also in Oklahoma City, I made a couple personal stops. In OKC, my grandmother and mother was born and raised, therefore a trip to my grandmother and grandfather's grave site was in order. The site was in good condition, the old house still looked good and the local area didn't seem to change very much from what I remember.
The worst part definitely would have to be desert. When I say desert I don't mean New Mexico. NM was nice, flat but pretty. Although I hit Albuquerque at night, I still hold the city in high respects in terms of nice. and pretty. I don't mean Arizona. AZ was flat at first and very mountainous in the middle and loaded with pine trees. Flagstaff was a nice city as well, but didn't get to stop in it. The end of Arizona was nasty, but California. You can drive three to fours hours across CA, and the first 75% of it is desert and shitty.
Two hours across the California desert, and it was actually warm here ( 75-80 degrees), whereas I had highs of 60 and lows of 40 across Tennessee, Arkansas, Oklahoma, Texas, New Mexico and the beginning of Arizona. It was sunny and warm, long and monotonous. Then it was another two hours from the end of country-wide route 40 down to Oceanside. And I hit LA rush hour traffic to boot. Definitely the longest and most annoying part of the trip.
So yeah.. I'm sure I'll remember more, but I'm here. I'm not settled in. Five days ago I was in College Park, Md getting wings. Now I'm in another world, where I have no idea where the hell anything is. I have no idea what I'm walking into for work tomorrow; it's like the first day of school again. I'm definitely unsure about what the hell I'm doing here and how it's going to work. I still can't believe what I've just done.
What have I just done?
Go Skins.
I miss you all. Even the ones I detest. Not really.

tired. lost.

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 02:55:25 GMT
So. OKC. The midwest. I'm here. You're there; I still have no idea what i'm doing out here and where i'm going. Things aren't as clear as I thought they were. Reality is setting in. I hope it's just the fact that I've been driving for nearly two days straight and I'm freakin tired. Since last night was in the car, barely; tonight I'm holding up @ a Days Inn. I needed to stretch out tonight. And so I am. Anyway. Goddamn tired.